"Last time, I don't think I was ready to have another child, and I had different feelings about the miscarriage."
Whitney Port made a name for herself on reality television, but in recent years, she's made headlines time and time again for raw web series "I Love My Baby, But…", in which she opens up about her rough pregnancy and struggles as a new mom. Now The Hills star is getting real about a topic many, many women know all too well: Miscarriage.
Whitney, who is mom to 3-year-old Sonny, recently expanded her YouTube channel as she and her husband Tim Rosenman were taking on some big life changes.
"We decided to start vlogging for our YouTube channel a couple months ago to share two stories: Renovating a new house and a new pregnancy journey," she wrote in an Instagram post this week. "Sadly, I lost the pregnancy. Timmy and I weren't sure if we still wanted to put this out there. I wasn't sure I wanted to relive the pain."
Reliving the pain is hard, as Port knows. She was open about her previous miscarriage that happened in 2019, too.
At the time she opened up on her podcast, With Whit, explaining that she felt some relief when that surprise pregnancy ended early.
"I honestly feel like a complete monster for saying this, but when I found out the pregnancy was possibly not [viable], I thought to myself 'maybe this is sort of a relief.'... There was part of me that was like 'if this isn't going to happen, I think I'm okay with it.' And I didn't want to tell [my husband]," she says.
But this time, things were different. She was planning for a second baby this time, as she explained in her Instagram post.
"Last time, I don't think I was ready to have another child, and I had different feelings about the miscarriage. This time, I really connected. I was actually excited and enjoying the pregnancy. I envisioned it all. I'm sad but I'm ok and we will try again."
We are grateful to Port for sharing her experience so honestly and hope that anyone dealing with a pregnancy loss can take to heart the advice she offered in 2019:
"The biggest thing I want anyone to get out of this is that whatever reaction you have to a miscarriage is okay...Whether you are a little bit relieved, whether you're devastated. Whatever it is—[you should not] overanalyze or feel guilty for how you're feeling."
[A version of this post was originally published July 24, 2019. It has been updated.]