I'm going to miss being pregnant

I'm going to miss the anticipation of every ultrasound, that chance to see a tiny glimpse of their lives inside my own body.

I'm going to miss being pregnant

Today, as I walked back home from my OB appointment with my giant pregnant belly smiling back at everyone who smiled at me, it suddenly hit me: I'm going to miss being pregnant. Like, a lot.

This is my last pregnancy. We were surprised with spontaneous twins this time around and three kids are all we can handle financially (and mentally) given we have no family around us to help. As my due date inches closer day by day, I feel myself growing more and more attached to my belly.

My first pregnancy was easy, but I was also a nervous first-time mom and I didn't enjoy the process as much as I do now. I was filled with fears and doubts, everything was unknown and slightly terrifying. I found myself constantly Googling, "Is it normal for 'fill-in-the-blank' during pregnancy?" because I was absolutely clueless.


This time around, though, things haven't been as easy. I've had terrible nausea that left me crying on the couch for days, every part of my body hurts as my belly gets bigger and the heartburn is just a lot to handle. Despite all of that, I know what's coming and I'm trying to make the best out of every single up and down.

I'm going to miss Baby A kicking Baby B and their little dance of movements commencing in my belly.

I'm going to miss soaking in a tub full of Epsom salts trying to make my bones hurt less.

I'm going to miss my toddler tapping my belly and saying "hello baby sisters" every time he has a chance.

I'm going to miss massaging oils into my stretched out skin every night, a way of pampering myself but also them.

I'm going to miss the waddle that makes me look like a penguin every time I walk somewhere.

I'm going to miss the weird cravings and the middle of the night snacks.

I'm going to miss playing "was that pee or did my water break?" starting on day one of the third trimester.

I'm going to miss the anticipation of every ultrasound, that chance to see a tiny glimpse of their lives inside my own body.

I'm going to miss the faces of people who ask "boy or girl?" and receive a shocking "two girls" in response. Their eyes pop out and their mouths gape wide open every single time.

I'm even going to miss the really intrusive questions like, "Was it IVF?" or, "How will you tell them apart?" because it gives me a chance to educate others a little more about the fascinating world of twins, one that I was randomly chosen to be a part of but I can't imagine having any other way.

I'm going to miss creating life the most. Even as a second-time mom obsessed with science and facts, my mind is still blown knowing my body can not only create one human but two... at the same time!

And before you think I'm all sunshine and roses because you too have been pregnant and know it's not at all a walk in the park, no I will not miss the gas pains that leave me out of breath on the floor. I won't ever miss the heartburn after eating half a cracker or the fact that my feet and fingers have doubled in size and sometimes breathing is the hardest thing for me to do.

Yet, despite all of that, I'm going to miss being pregnant.

Sure, I want to meet my babies and get to know them outside of the womb. There's plenty of adventures ahead of us. But they won't be just my little partners in crime, going everywhere I go and agreeing to everything I do. As much as I want my husband to hold his baby girls for the first time—and just writing that brings tears to my eyes—I also want to keep them warm and cozy sleeping to the beat of my heart.

It's weird. I never wanted kids and now here I am mourning a pregnancy that hasn't yet come to an end. That's how wild and transformative becoming a mother is.

I still have 10 or so more weeks to go and I will spend them enjoying every single second of this pregnancy. I'll make a point to document it all so I don't forget how this all felt once it's a tiny memory while I chase after three toddlers.

And I will forever be thankful to my body for giving me three of the best people in my life.

14 outdoor toys your kids will want to play with beyond summer

They transition seamlessly for indoor play.

With Labor day weekend in the rearview and back-to-school in full swing, most parents are fresh out of boxes to check on their "Fun Concierge" hit list. It's also the point of diminishing returns on investing in summer-only toys. So with that in mind, we've rounded up some of our favorite toys that are not only built to last but will easily make the transition from outdoor to indoor play. Even better, they're Montessori-friendly and largely open-ended so your kids can get a ton of use out of them.

From sunny backyard afternoons to rainy mornings stuck inside, these toys are sure to keep little ones engaged and entertained.

Meadow ring toss game

Plan Toys meadow ring toss game

Besides offering a fantastic opportunity to hone focus, coordination, determination and taking turns, lawn games are just plain fun. Set them up close together for the littles and spread them out when Mom and Dad get in on the action. With their low profile and rope rings, they're great for indoors as well.


Balance board

Plan Toys balance board

Balance boards are a fabulous way to get the wiggles out. This one comes with a rope attachment, making it suitable for even the youngest wigglers. From practicing their balance and building core strength to working on skills that translate to skateboarding and snowboarding, it's a year-round physical activity that's easy to bring inside and use between Zoom classes, too!


Detective set

Plan Toys detective setDetective Set

This set has everything your little detective needs to solve whatever mystery they might encounter: an eye glasses, walkie-talkie, camera, a red lens, a periscope and a bag. Neighborhood watch? Watch out.


Wooden doll stroller

Janod wooden doll strollerWooden Doll Stroller

Take their charges on a stroll around the block with this classic doll stroller. With the same versatility they're used to in their own ride, this heirloom quality carriage allows their doll or stuffy to face them or face the world.


Sand play set

Plan Toys sand set

Whether you're hitting the beach or the backyard sandbox, this adorable wooden sand set is ready for action. Each scoop has an embossed pattern that's perfect for sand stamping. They're also totally suitable for water play in the wild or the bathtub.


Water play set

Plan Toys water play set

Filled with sand or water, this tabletop sized activity set keeps little ones busy, quiet and happy. (A mama's ideal trifecta 😉). It's big enough to satisfy their play needs but not so big it's going to flood your floors if you bring the fun inside on a rainy day.


Mini golf set

Plan Toys mini golf set

Fore! This mini golf set is lawn and living room ready. Set up a backyard competition or incorporate into homeschooling brain breaks that shift focus and build concentration.


Vintage scooter balance bike

Janod retro scooter balance bike

Pedals are so 2010. Balance bikes are the way to go for learning to ride a bike while skipping the training wheels stage altogether. This impossibly cool retro scooter-style is built to cruise the neighborhood or open indoor space as they're learning.


Wooden rocking pegasus

plan toys wooden rocking pegasus

Your little will be ready to take flight on this fun pegasus. It gently rocks back and forth, but doesn't skimp on safety—its winged saddle, footrests and backrest ensure kids won't fall off whether they're rocking inside or outside.


Croquet set

Plan Toys croquet set

The cutest croquet set we've ever seen! With adorable animal face wooden balls and a canvas bag for easy clean up, it's also crafted to stick around awhile. Round after round, it's great for teaching kiddos math and problem-solving skills as well.


Wooden digital camera

fathers factory wooden digital camera

Kids get the chance to assemble the camera on their own then can adventure anywhere to capture the best moments. With two detachable magnetic lenses, four built-in filters and video recorder, your little photographer can tap into their creativity from summertime to the holidays.


Wooden bulldozer toy

plan toys wooden bulldozer toy

Whether they're digging up sand in the backyad or picking up toys inside, kids can get as creative as they want picking up and moving things around. Even better? Its wooden structure means it's not an eye sore to look at wherever your digger drops it.


Pull-along hippo

janod toys pull along hippo toy

There's just something so fun about a classic pull-along toy and we love that they seamlessly transition between indoor and outdoor play. Crafted from solid cherry and beechwood, it's tough enough to endure outdoor spaces your toddler takes it on.


Baby forest fox ride-on

janod toys baby fox ride on

Toddlers will love zooming around on this fox ride-on, and it's a great transition toy into traditional balance bikes. If you take it for a driveway adventure, simply use a damp cloth to wipe down the wheels before bringing back inside.


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I never wanted to be a mom. It wasn't something I ever thought would happen until I fell madly in love with my husband—who knew very well he wanted children. While he was a natural at entertaining our nephews or our friends' kids, I would awkwardly try to interact with them, not really knowing what to say or do.

Our first pregnancy was a surprise, a much-wanted one but also a unicorn, "first try" kind of pregnancy. As my belly grew bigger, so did my insecurities. How do you even mom when you never saw motherhood in your future? I focused all my uncertainties on coming up with a plan for the delivery of my baby—which proved to be a terrible idea when my dreamed-of unmedicated vaginal birth turned into an emergency C-section. I couldn't even start motherhood the way I wanted, I thought. And that feeling happened again when I couldn't breastfeed and instead had to pump and bottle-feed. And once more, when all the stress from things not going my way turned into debilitating postpartum anxiety that left me not really enjoying my brand new baby.

As my baby grew, slowly so did my confidence that I could do this. When he would tumble to the ground while learning how to walk and only my hugs could calm him, I felt invincible. But on the nights he wouldn't sleep—whether because he was going through a regression, a leap, a teeth eruption or just a full moon—I would break down in tears to my husband telling him that he was a better parent than me.

Then I found out I was pregnant again, and that this time it was twins. I panicked. I really cannot do two babies at the same time. I kept repeating that to myself (and to my poor husband) at every single appointment we had because I was just terrified. He, of course, thought I could absolutely do it, and he got me through a very hard pregnancy.

When the twins were born at full term and just as big as singleton babies, I still felt inadequate, despite the monumental effort I had made to grow these healthy babies and go through a repeat C-section to make sure they were both okay. I still felt my skin crawl when they cried and thought, What if I can't calm them down? I still turned to my husband for diaper changes because I wasn't a good enough mom for twins.

My husband reminded me (and still does) that I am exactly what my babies need. That I am enough. A phrase that has now become my mantra, both in motherhood and beyond, because as my husband likes to say, I'm the queen of selling myself short on everything.

So when my babies start crying, I tell myself that I am enough to calm them down.

When my toddler has a tantrum, I remind myself that I am enough to get through to him.

When I go out with the three kids by myself and start sweating about everything that could go wrong (poop explosions times three), I remind myself that I am enough to handle it all, even with a little humor.

And then one day I found this bracelet. Initially, I thought how cheesy it'd be to wear a reminder like this on my wrist, but I bought it anyway because something about it was calling my name. I'm so glad I did because since day one I haven't stopped wearing it.

Every time I look down, there it is, shining back at me. I am enough.

I Am Enough bracelet 

SONTAKEY  I Am Enough Bracelet

May this Oath Bracelet be your reminder that you are perfect just the way you are. That you are enough for your children, you are enough for your friends & family, you are enough for everything that you do. You are enough, mama <3


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