The moment you first become a mother, you open your heart for something that it has never experienced before. The moment you become a mother of two, you open your heart again for something it has once experienced, yet at the same time, for something that it has never experienced before. Becoming a mom of two is beautiful, but it’s also hard.

In this moving Instagram post, a mother shares a heartfelt truth in her experience of becoming a mama of two.

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“Mothering to two has been beautiful, but this transition has also been really hard. 

Somedays I feel like I’m doing great, then there’s days that I feel like I’m falling short. It’s been difficult for me to split my attention equally and attentively and the amount of guilt I feel for sharing my time between the two of them is unreal. When I have a newborn crying out for me, and a toddler screaming “Mommy”—it pains me having to choose who to console first. 

I know that the days are long now, and that they will get better—but man this is hard.

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I knew this new journey would come with many bumps along the way, and that there’d be new lessons to be learned. But it’s exhausting, testing, challenging, and demanding in every way imaginable. 

My mind feels so tangled most of the time, and I feel like I’ll be stuck in a game of catch up forever. 

I know that the days are long now, and that they will get better—but man this is hard.”