About 6.1 million women in the United States are dealing with infertility.
Step one: Leave my house.
We wanted to run away—not from her, but from everyone else.
There are a million things that change and take on new meanings and shapes. There are a million words that suddenly don't seem so nice anymore. There are a million faces that don't bring comfort like they used to.
I dropped the "shoulds" and started doing what worked best for us.
After my son was born, all I wanted was sleep. But I was scared of closing my eyes for fear of something happening to him during that time. I couldn’t shut my mind off from all the irrational thoughts running through it.
I love my snuggles and I love being the antidote to their fear and sadness. But occasionally, I do wish they understood that they could easily wake their dad for help, or that he is equally capable of putting socks on the correct way.
You are all my firsts. And you may also be all my lasts. Whether Daddy and I can give you a little brother or sister is unknown to us. Giving you a sibling would be one of the greatest gifts, but nobody knows if we will be able to have more children.
7. Yoga, working out & meditation
We were able to bare our ugliest secrets, our silliest insecurities, our pettiest worries and our darkest fears about life as a mom.
"Each day was a battle."
But you know what it is? It's worth it. It's so worth it to me.
Here are three simple, effective strategies we can do to increase our own happiness levels.
I feel like the woman I was before I became a mother is someone I am familiar with, but I don't know her all that well—she's more like an acquaintance. Honestly, I have to think really hard to remember what it was like to be her.
Watching my kids play with her kids—and the bond they share—makes me so proud. They fight and argue like siblings, but they also light up when they see each other and laugh so hard whenever they're together.
And I'm done doing it.
Half, step or whole siblings it doesn't matter. The love is full no matter what.
Thank you for the gift of health. Thank you for the gift of life. Thank you for the gift of movement.
I had no idea how my heart would stretch and grow with every day of being your mom.