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Chrissy Teigen on postpartum depression: 'I just assumed that was motherhood'

Chrissy Teigen is a mama who doesn't bite her tongue. The Lip Sync Battle star takes to social media on a regular basis to update fans about her work and family, and she's been brutally honest about the ups and downs of #momlife.

The 33-year-old mom of two has spoken candidly about her experience with postpartum depression (PPD) after welcoming daughter Luna, who is now 3 years old. In a recent interview with Today, Teigen explained that of all the stuff she's done in her career or talked about her public admission postpartum depression after Luna's birth is what people talk to her about the most.

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"Since it happened with Luna, it happened with my first one, I just didn't know that there was any other way to feel...I thought it was very natural to be in this low, low point and I just assumed that was motherhood and there was no other way around it," she tells Today, adding that she didn't truly realize how many women are impacted by PPD the first time she went public with her story.

"I didn't really realize it until I'd written an article with Glamour magazine and spoken out about it how many women are going through this...I think more than anything I've ever done, more women on the street come up to me and talk about that article than anything else."

That article was only the first in a series of very open public conversations Teigen has had on the subject. When she was expecting Miles in 2018 she spoke on stage at a Create & Cultivate event in Los Angeles and didn't hold back about how she was feeling as a pregnant mom who had already been through PPD once.

“Do I worry about it with this little boy? I do. But I also know that when it does happen — if it does — I'm so ready for it. I have the perfect people around me for it. That's why I stand for a real core group of people around me", according to People.

Teigen's concerns about PPD were certainly warranted, and so is her advocacy. About one in nine women in the United States experience postpartum depression symptoms, according to the U.S. Centers for Disease Control and Prevention. Among women who, like Teigen, have already experienced an episode of PPD, the rates are as high as 50%.

PPD is super common, but it is also super hard, even for someone with all the resources Teigen has. “I have all the help I could need: John, my mother (who lives with us), a nanny. But postpartum does not discriminate. I couldn't control it. And that's part of the reason it took me so long to speak up: I felt selfish, icky, and weird saying aloud that I'm struggling. Sometimes I still do," she wrote in the essay for Glamour .

Teigen spoke up about her PPD because she doesn't want other moms to delay getting help. When she was diagnosed after months of pain, it was an incredible relief, and she wishes she'd gotten help sooner.

“I remember being so exhausted but happy to know that we could finally get on the path of getting better. John had that same excitement. I started taking an antidepressant, which helped."

Teigen isn't shutting the door on having more kids just yet, telling the folks at Today that she'll be ready to advocate for herself, "even in the future with any other babies that come along."

If PPD does strike this mama again, she will be ready. We're pretty sure it doesn't stand a chance, because if her Twitter history is any indication, this is a mama who will not be messed with.

[A version of this post was published on February 26, 2018. It has been updated.]

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Then I would spend so much time figuring out where we could go with said stroller, because I wanted to avoid places with steps or narrow doors (I couldn't lift the stroller by myself and I was too embarrassed to ask strangers for help—also hi, New Yorkers, please help new moms when you see them huffing and puffing up the subway stairs, okay?). Then I would obsess about the weather, was it too cold to bring the baby out? And by the time I thought I had our adventure planned, the baby would wake up, I would still be in my PJs and it was time to pump yet again.

Slowly, but surely, and mostly thanks to sleep deprivation and isolation, I began to detest this whole new mom life. I've always been a social butterfly. I moved to New York because I craved that non-stop energy the city has and in the years before having my baby I amassed new friends I made through my daily adventures. I would never stop. I would walk everywhere just to take in the scenery and was always on the move.

Now I had this ball and chain attached to me, I thought, that didn't even allow me to make it out of the door to walk the dog. This sucks, I would think regularly, followed by maybe I'm not meant to be a mom after all.


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I never wanted to be a mom. It wasn't something I ever thought would happen until I fell madly in love with my husband—who knew very well he wanted children. While he was a natural at entertaining our nephews or our friends' kids, I would awkwardly try to interact with them, not really knowing what to say or do.

Our first pregnancy was a surprise, a much-wanted one but also a unicorn, "first try" kind of pregnancy. As my belly grew bigger, so did my insecurities. How do you even mom when you never saw motherhood in your future? I focused all my uncertainties on coming up with a plan for the delivery of my baby—which proved to be a terrible idea when my dreamed-of unmedicated vaginal birth turned into an emergency C-section. I couldn't even start motherhood the way I wanted, I thought. And that feeling happened again when I couldn't breastfeed and instead had to pump and bottle-feed. And once more, when all the stress from things not going my way turned into debilitating postpartum anxiety that left me not really enjoying my brand new baby.

As my baby grew, slowly so did my confidence that I could do this. When he would tumble to the ground while learning how to walk and only my hugs could calm him, I felt invincible. But on the nights he wouldn't sleep—whether because he was going through a regression, a leap, a teeth eruption or just a full moon—I would break down in tears to my husband telling him that he was a better parent than me.

Then I found out I was pregnant again, and that this time it was twins. I panicked. I really cannot do two babies at the same time. I kept repeating that to myself (and to my poor husband) at every single appointment we had because I was just terrified. He, of course, thought I could absolutely do it, and he got me through a very hard pregnancy.

When the twins were born at full term and just as big as singleton babies, I still felt inadequate, despite the monumental effort I had made to grow these healthy babies and go through a repeat C-section to make sure they were both okay. I still felt my skin crawl when they cried and thought, What if I can't calm them down? I still turned to my husband for diaper changes because I wasn't a good enough mom for twins.

My husband reminded me (and still does) that I am exactly what my babies need. That I am enough. A phrase that has now become my mantra, both in motherhood and beyond, because as my husband likes to say, I'm the queen of selling myself short on everything.

So when my babies start crying, I tell myself that I am enough to calm them down.

When my toddler has a tantrum, I remind myself that I am enough to get through to him.

When I go out with the three kids by myself and start sweating about everything that could go wrong (poop explosions times three), I remind myself that I am enough to handle it all, even with a little humor.


And then one day I found this bracelet. Initially, I thought how cheesy it'd be to wear a reminder like this on my wrist, but I bought it anyway because something about it was calling my name. I'm so glad I did because since day one I haven't stopped wearing it.

Every time I look down, there it is, shining back at me. I am enough.

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When your baby is crying, it feels nearly instinctual to stand up to rock, sway and soothe them. That's because standing up to calm babies is instinctual—driven by centuries of positive feedback from calmed babies, researchers have found.

"Infants under 6 months of age carried by a walking mother immediately stopped voluntary movement and crying and exhibited a rapid heart rate decrease, compared with holding by a sitting mother," say authors of a 2013 study published in Current Biology.

Even more striking: This coordinated set of actions—the mother standing and the baby calming—is observed in other mammal species, too. Using pharmacologic and genetic interventions with mice, the authors say, "We identified strikingly similar responses in mouse pups as defined by immobility and diminished ultrasonic vocalizations and heart rate."

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