Home / Life / Motherly Stories To the mom who feels invisible in motherhood, I see you Hi, my name is mom. Some days I forget what my given name is. By Sydney Waters Updated January 11, 2023 Hi my name is mom. Some days I forget what my given name is. I forget that I’m a person outside of motherhood. My day starts and ends with endless mommy’s—Mom, Mommy, Mom. My thoughts are consumed with what’s next. Whose needs come next. What do I need to fix next. What bill do we need to pay next? Feed the kids. Tantrum city. Change the diapers. Get them dressed. Change them again. Nurse the baby. Love on them. Hi, my name is mom. Out the door. In the car. Don’t be late for this. Don’t be late for that. Nurse the baby. Hold the toddler. Kiss the knees. Back in the car. More meltdowns. Nap time. Get more snacks. Change the clothes. Clean the spit up. Hi, my name is mom. Related: The invisible labor of motherhood is real—and it’s burning us out I haven’t talked to another adult face-to-face besides my partner in a week. I’m not even sure if I want to because of my anxiety, but I feel like I should. I go to the store and feel like a ghost walking through the aisles, completely unseen and unheard. I roam around lost and sometimes I secretly hope someone will ask me if I need help just so I can interact with them. Hi, my name is mom. My girlfriends still call, most of them don’t have kids yet. I try to be the old me, the one with a name. I’m getting tugged on, sucked on and yelled at while trying to listen to their plans. I remember those. I beg them to keep asking me to hang out even though I know I won’t be able to come. Hi, my name is mom. When I get girl time I bring the baby with me because she needs me. I’ve been pregnant for three years. My body isn’t my own. I haven’t cut or colored my hair in over a year and just recently bought myself a pair of jeans (it had been four years) and I am completely consumed. Kids first. Depression is always lurking and waiting for me to get lost. For me to completely forget who I am. I’m trapped in the routine of mom. Related: The invisible work of a stay-at-home mom Staying at home there’s nowhere to hide, to vent, to create, to release. Being a mom is a thankless job. I’m unseen and no one hears me. I don’t get paid. I don’t get a pat on the back. I don’t get to leave work or clock out. I don’t get to drive to and from work alone. For almost four years I’ve been going to sleep and waking up at my place of employment with no escape. My partner comes home and has stories to share with me. Colleagues. Humans. Funny stories. I repeat the same story every day. How cute the kids were, what movie we watched, something sweet a toddler said, what we ate for lunch. Hi, my name is mom. Read books. Take a walk. Bathtime. Kiss the knees. Put on pajamas. Say, “goodnight, I love you.” So much? “So much.” Close my eyes. “Good morning, babe. You ready to go downstairs?” Get the baby. Tantrums. Change clothes. Wrangle the toddlers. Down the stairs, up the stairs. Breakfast time. Do the dishes. Hi, my name is mom. My time alone is rushed. I rush to shower, I rush to get tasks done, I rush to eat. I’m always running to get back to take care of everyone else. Over the years you just get lost. Being a mom is hard. It’s lonely. It’s exhausting. But here’s the thing… I see you. We all see you. I see your tired eyes. I see the disheveled look on your face when you show up late. I see the stains on your shirt. The look you have when your kid is losing it and you wish they would get it together just this one time. I know you want to talk and I will. I know how lonely it can be. I want to know about your day, the lunch you ate off your kids plate and that movie you watched over and over again. I want to see a hundred pictures of the little faces that make your world go round because I care. Related: We both feel invisible in new parenthood—but I promise, I see you I want you to know that people are watching. That when you go to bed exhausted because you were working hard all day and have to be up in two hours it doesn’t go unnoticed. I know you’re doing an amazing job. I know what it’s like to feel invisible. Our kids see us. They love the kisses, the walks, the mediocre dinners and the same bedtime story. Our friends see us. Our family and partners see us. They think we’re killing it even if they don’t say it out loud. But sometimes we need to hear it. Take that long shower, buy new clothes, treat yourself to something special, eat alone, find your happy place. Call your friends, reach out to each other, remember your village and why they’re there. Being a mom is so hard. SO HARD. Don’t drown. Remember your name, what you love and who you are. A version of this post was originally published on strollinwithmyhomies.com in 2017. It has been updated.