We both know the days when we have no patience left to deal with the noise and requests, no willpower to turn the TV off and go to bed at a reasonable hour in order to get enough sleep to keep up with the chaos, no motivation to be the best version of our adult selves and get all the things done like buckets of laundry and mowing the lawn and cleaning up the crumbs and, and, and...
We've had many nights when the exhausted, run-down version of you greets the exhausted, run-down version of me at the door. The nights where the kids should have been in bed an hour ago but we just can't get it together and everything is taking longer than it "should." The nights where we so desperately need to just have 10 minutes of quiet or 10 minutes to connect or 10 minutes to just rest.
We've had many early morning wake up calls. Those mornings when we feel like we blinked and now it's time to start the day. (Like...did I even sleep? Does sleep exist?)
The mornings when we wake up already feeling ready for it to be nighttime again. The mornings where we feel like we woke up on the wrong side of the bed and we're not sure if we're going to be able to turn things around.
We're not sure where we're going to get the energy from to get through what we need to do or the inspiration to do those things with a smile.
We've had the weekends filled with more tasks and less spontaneity. The weekdays filled with meeting after meeting and to-do after to-do. The days when what could go wrong does… the days filled with guilt for not doing enough, not being enough.
The nights when we want to have alone time or go out to dinner on a whim—but can't.
The mornings when we want to sleep in—but can't.
The days when we just want to give our brains a break for a second—but can't.
I promise to be the inspiration when yours cannot be found. To be your motivation when you feel low. To be your patience when you're all out.
When you are having a rough day, I will check in with you. I vow to make you smile.
When you need a break, I will encourage you to take one. I vow to look out for you when you don't feel like you can.
When you feel like you're not enough, I will remind you that you're everything to us. I vow to really see you.
When you feel low, I will help you rise up. I vow to give you all of my love.
And, my darling, I just ask for a few small things in return.
Please see me.
Please notice what I do.
Please lift me up.
On the days when there have been too many messes, too many meltdowns, too many decisions to make, please come home and give me the best hug ever. Please look into my eyes and tell me that you're proud of me.
Please jump right in and help wherever you see needs it. Please try not to focus on the mess or lack of readiness for bedtime, but instead, focus on this family time we have together now.
Focus on the good, on our kids, on what matters.
Focus on me.
And when I feel like I can't go on any further, carry me.
When I feel like I can't do any better, remind me of what makes me good.
When I feel like I am failing, tell me about my successes.
When I feel like I've lost myself, encourage me to go find her.
When I feel like I'm nothing but extra weight, look at me—really see me—and describe to me what makes me beautiful.
When I can't get everything done, let me know that it's okay—because no one can.
When I'm exhausted, remind me to rest.
When I'm down on myself, make me smile.
When I need a night out, tell me I deserve it.
When I don't feel like I am enough… when I feel low and insecure… when I feel like I can't climb out of the hole I've created…
Come get me.
Lift me up.
And I'll always be there to return the favor, my darling. I promise.