To my firstborn: You will always be my baby

After having you, I was terrified of having another kid because I didn't think I could love someone else as much as you.

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"I'm not baby. I Brynn!" This was your response to me the other day, and has been many times since when I say, "Here ya go, baby" and hand you your Minnie Mouse sippy cup. I can't get over how your little toddler face has already perfected that Come on, Mom exasperated look.

Of course, you aren't the only one who says stuff like this. I have also been hearing, "You know, you don't have a baby anymore. Brynn is a full-on child." And I look at you, my sweet little 2-year-old, and I see what they are saying. Physically, I see a tall, lean kid who runs and jumps and tries to sing the ABC's and speaks in little sentences and wants her full head of curly hair styled like Poppy's from Trolls.


My eyes see it. Yet, my heart doesn't.

Last night you patted my tummy and said, "Baby in Mama's belly" and gave your sibling a "baby kiss" (as opposed to a "big kiss") and I wondered if that is where the "I'm not baby" came from. Do you think there can only be one baby for Mama at a time, little one?

I find myself wondering the same thing, my love. After having you, I was terrified of having another kid because I didn't think I could love someone else as much as you. Now that I am pregnant, I love the baby growing in my belly, but it is still hard for me to comprehend how my heart is going to multiply once again so it can live in yet another tiny human.

Because that's what happens, you know? My heart didn't just expand to hold more love for you, my firstborn—it multiplied. And then when you arrived, you took my heart with you out into the world.

Every time you get sick, my heart hurts. Every time you cry "Mama!" in the night, my heart hears it and wants to go to you. Every time I see you being brave and daring, my heart skips a beat thinking about you falling. Every time you ask your dad if he is okay when he coughs, my heart swells. Because you carry my heart around with you everywhere you go. And your sibling will, too.

But it will be a different heart for them. They won't take that heart from you, baby girl. The one you took from me the day you were born? You get to keep that forever.

When the new baby comes and our attention gets pulled from you—you'll still be my baby.

When you start kindergarten not batting an eye going into your new classroom—you'll still be my baby.

When you don't want Dada and I to read you books, because you can read them yourself—you'll still be my baby.

When you decide your friends are cooler than your parents and want to hang out with them instead of us—you'll still be my baby.

When you get in trouble at school for talking too much—you'll still be my baby.

When your attitude blossoms along with your body into teenagehood—you'll still be my baby.

When you graduate high school and move away to college—you'll still be my baby. If you get married and start a family of your own—you'll still by my baby. And when I'm old and gray and you are not so young yourself—you will still be my baby.

That's the thing I'm learning, little big one. No matter how old you get, or how many siblings you have, you will always be my sweet, sweet baby.

By its very nature, motherhood requires some lifestyle adjustments: Instead of staying up late with friends, you get up early for snuggles with your baby. Instead of spontaneous date nights with your honey, you take afternoon family strolls with your little love. Instead of running out of the house with just your keys and phone, you only leave with a fully loaded diaper bag.

For breastfeeding or pumping mamas, there is an additional layer of consideration around when, how and how much your baby will eat. Thankfully, when it comes to effective solutions for nursing or bottle-feeding your baby, Dr. Brown's puts the considerations of mamas and their babies first with products that help with every step of the process—from comfortably adjusting to nursing your newborn to introducing a bottle to efficiently pumping.

With countless hours spent breastfeeding, pumping and bottle-feeding, the editors at Motherly know the secret to success is having dependable supplies that can help you feed your baby in a way that matches lifestyle.

Here are 9 breastfeeding and pumping products to help you no matter what the day holds.

Customflow™ Double Electric Breast Pump

Dr. Brown's electric pump

For efficient, productive pumping sessions, a double electric breast pump will help you get the job done as quickly as possible. Quiet for nighttime pumping sessions and compact for bringing along to work, this double pump puts you in control with fully adjustable settings.


Hands-Free Pumping Bra

Dr. Brown''s hands free pumping bra

Especially in the early days, feeding your baby can feel like a pretty consuming task. A hands-free pumping bra will help you reclaim some of your precious time while pumping—and all mamas will know just how valuable more time can be!


Manual Breast Pump with SoftShape™ Silicone Shield

Dr. Brown's manual breast pump

If you live a life that sometimes takes you away from electrical outlets (that's most of us!), then you'll absolutely want a manual breast pump in your arsenal. With two pumping modes to promote efficient milk expression and a comfort-fitted shield, a manual pump is simply the most convenient pump to take along and use. Although it may not get as much glory as an electric pump, we really appreciate how quick and easy this manual pump is to use—and how liberating it is not to stress about finding a power supply.


Nipple Shields and Sterilization Case

Dr. Brown's nipple shields

There is a bit of a learning curve to breastfeeding—for both mamas and babies. Thankfully, even if there are some physical challenges (like inverted nipples or a baby's tongue tie) or nursing doesn't click right away, silicone nipple shields can be a huge help. With a convenient carry case that can be sterilized in the microwave, you don't have to worry about germs or bacteria either. 🙌


Silicone One-Piece Breast Pump

Dr. Brown's silicone pump

When you are feeding your baby on one breast, the other can still experience milk letdown—which means it's a golden opportunity to save some additional milk. With a silent, hands-free silicone pump, you can easily collect milk while nursing.


Breast to Bottle Pump & Store Feeding Set

After a lifetime of nursing from the breast, introducing a bottle can be a bit of a strange experience for babies. Dr. Brown's Options+™ and slow flow bottle nipples were designed with this in mind to make the introduction to bottles smooth and pleasant for parents and babies. As a set that seamlessly works together from pumping to storing milk to bottle feeding, you don't have to stress about having everything you need to keep your baby fed and happy either.


Washable Breast Pads

washable breast pads

Mamas' bodies are amazingly made to help breast milk flow when it's in demand—but occasionally also at other times. Especially as your supply is establishing or your breasts are fuller as the length between feeding sessions increase, it's helpful to use washable nursing pads to prevent breast milk from leaking through your bra.


Breast Milk Storage Bags

Dr. Brown's milk storage bags

The essential for mamas who do any pumping, breast milk storage bags allow you to easily and safely seal expressed milk in the refrigerator or freezer. Dr. Brown's™ Breast Milk Storage Bags take it even further with extra thick walls that block out scents from other food items and feature an ultra secure lock to prevent leaking.


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